Sunday, February 5, 2017

5 on 5

Things in pointer today..

1) I am really looking forward to the next weekend as we'll be going on a family trip, just the three of us! 

2) These places are not new to us, especially me, since I have ever lived there for approximately 5 years during my childhood. And as for my husband, it's his mother's hometown. So it's gonna be like a little trip down memory lane for both of us. 

3) I am super excited that I am almost done packing our things. Clothes, blankets, towels, diapers,  and toiletries are already put in the suitcase. Don't get me wrong, I'm not like perfectionist A-blood type people who use to plan in advance and well-prepared (or so I heard about them), I am just too excited that I don't want to miss a thing and then make a little ruin to our holiday.

4) It suddenly makes me wonder about the blood type personality traits, does it still make sense to you? Because I can't really relate to it anymore now. My husband's personality traits and mine seem to be interchangeably switched.

5) Despite all the excitements, a large part of me feels regretful that we didn't ask our parents to join our holiday the first time we planned everything. I did tell my mother about this though, and she just said that this will be good for us, going on our own. Simply no fuss. But on my husband's side, I don't know that he hasn't told her mother yet, until this morning, when she finally got the news, she was a bit disappointed knowing that we won't stop in Jakarta first to bring her along before we go to the holiday destination. I know, rite? I know that this is going to happen. I know that my feeling was right that as the children of our parents, we don't deserve a holiday yet if we still couldn't fulfill their expectations, make them feel happy buying them things they love, bring them to holidays, give them money and all. It would be merrier if we go with more people and it will be lovely to bring family members though, but the thing is that we're on a very tight budget, we bought low cost carrier promo tickets, booked 3-stars hotels, and rented the cheapest-fared city car for this trip, that's what we only could afford. It's not that we are not willing to do something about it, but I am not sure that these reservations would fit their standard of comfort and hospitality. So I do hope that everyone will understand the case. And hopefully this trip would be enjoyable for us too, after all this foreword hassle.*sigh* 

Monday, January 16, 2017


Focus on what I have, 
not what I haven't got yet.  
Be grateful.

Just when I start feeling down, my daughter comes to me and kisses my lips.. repeatedly.
Every time I count my blessings, I'll count you thousand times! Thanks, baby!

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

State of Affairs

I just updated my resume on several job portals and drowned in thousands of vacancies, not because I want to go back to work again, but because I just want to help one of my best friends to go through her so called dream job hunt, or at least make sure that I am there accompanying her at this moment, like I always want to be. 

It made realize some *obvious* things that... 

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Yay or Nay

Since baby S started to weigh 9+ kgs by the time she turned one, I felt tired and got back pain very easily every time we had to go out and about where I had to wear her using our 3 position soft structured baby-carrier. Well, I've actually considered buying a toddler size baby-carrier to overcome this matter though, but now believing that my back is the real issue, I don't think that another carrier is the best way to go. 

Friday, December 23, 2016

Our Weekends

I've been questioned a lot by my family and friends lately whether we want to go back for good from SG anytime in the future. Well, I answered that question mostly with "Yes, we DO want, but we don't know when it will be". As of now, my husband enjoys his time with his company and really loves what he's doing there. We're actually still thinking about what we are going to do after we move to Indonesia. Should I go back to work? What about develop a startup? Children education wise, what kind of school should we send our daughter to? Since we haven't settled with our plans for the next 5 years yet, I should still keep considering that this country as my home, where we grow together raising our kid(s). 

Anyway, as a small country as it is, SG is surprisingly not that boring for me,  we can do different things every weekend or public holiday, going to playgrounds nearby, libraries, water parks, exhibitions, and the beach too! Where most of them are free though.

I can tell from the eyes of my daughter, how she loves these places so much! Thank you Singapore. 

Thursday, August 18, 2016

Separation Anxiety Strikes

My mother has come back to Jakarta two weeks after eid picked up by my younger brother who has a good stay with us for a week. The day after, cousins came to visit. I just realized that separation anxiety has stricken when I left S playing my cousin sister, while I have a quick wash. She frustratedly cried for ten minutes when I was in the bathroom, and then suddenly stopped after seeing me again.

I just didn't realize that it has begun long before that..

When she's 9 months old, or when she started to stand up holding to the furniture, she suddenly refused to be tucked in her crib at night. She kept waking up, standing by the railing of her crib, and crying.. asking to be carried. I nursed her to sleep again and I put her bed when she's already asleep, only to find that another hour she woke up again. This really made me tired as I've lost couple hours of my deep sleep, made me frustrated during the day. What happened to my sleep trained baby who used to sleep through the night?