Monday, January 16, 2017


Focus on what I have, 
not what I haven't got yet.  
Be grateful.

Just when I start feeling down, my daughter comes to me and kisses my lips.. repeatedly.
Every time I count my blessings, I'll count you thousand times! Thanks, baby!

Tuesday, January 10, 2017

State of Affairs

I just updated my resume on several job portals and drowned in thousands of vacancies, not because I want to go back to work again, but because I just want to help one of my best friends to go through her so called dream job hunt, or at least make sure that I am there accompanying her at this moment, like I always want to be. 

It made realize some *obvious* things that... 

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Yay or Nay

Since baby S started to weigh 9+ kgs by the time she turned one, I felt tired and got back pain very easily every time we had to go out and about where I had to wear her using our 3 position soft structured baby-carrier. Well, I've actually considered buying a toddler size baby-carrier to overcome this matter though, but now believing that my back is the real issue, I don't think that another carrier is the best way to go. 

Friday, December 23, 2016

Our Weekends

I've been questioned a lot by my family and friends lately whether we want to go back for good from SG anytime in the future. Well, I answered that question mostly with "Yes, we DO want, but we don't know when it will be". As of now, my husband enjoys his time with his company and really loves what he's doing there. We're actually still thinking about what we are going to do after we move to Indonesia. Should I go back to work? What about develop a startup? Children education wise, what kind of school should we send our daughter to? Since we haven't settled with our plans for the next 5 years yet, I should still keep considering that this country as my home, where we grow together raising our kid(s). 

Anyway, as a small country as it is, SG is surprisingly not that boring for me,  we can do different things every weekend or public holiday, going to playgrounds nearby, libraries, water parks, exhibitions, and the beach too! Where most of them are free though.

I can tell from the eyes of my daughter, how she loves these places so much! Thank you Singapore. 

Thursday, August 18, 2016

Separation Anxiety Strikes

My mother has come back to Jakarta two weeks after eid picked up by my younger brother who has a good stay with us for a week. The day after, cousins came to visit. I just realized that separation anxiety has stricken when I left S playing my cousin sister, while I have a quick wash. She frustratedly cried for ten minutes when I was in the bathroom, and then suddenly stopped after seeing me again.

I just didn't realize that it has begun long before that..

When she's 9 months old, or when she started to stand up holding to the furniture, she suddenly refused to be tucked in her crib at night. She kept waking up, standing by the railing of her crib, and crying.. asking to be carried. I nursed her to sleep again and I put her bed when she's already asleep, only to find that another hour she woke up again. This really made me tired as I've lost couple hours of my deep sleep, made me frustrated during the day. What happened to my sleep trained baby who used to sleep through the night?

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Eid Mubarak 1437 H!

On the eid fitr day a week ago, we attended the eid prayer at one of Singapore's stadium. Four of us, my husband, mother, daughter, and me myself managed to arrive at the stadium thirty minutes at 8.00 am before the prayer started so we could still get the first row. Alhamdulillah..

During ramadhan, baby S always woke up during sahur time together with us, and then she went back again to sleep after fajr prayer until 8.00 - 8.30 am. So on the eid day, she's still half asleep as she hasn't got used to early morning activities, because that day we started at 6 am, bathed her first, fed her, and then got her all dressed up with the gamis and hijab that my best friend gave as a present. Love love love!

Look at this picture of baby S wearing hijab. She was still sleepy though so she didn't want to smile to the camera.

I'm so grateful that I could spend ramadhan and eid fitr this year with my mother coming here, even though we couldn't gather with all of our family in Indonesia :(. Hopefully next year would be better, we could spend the day in Indonesia, surrounded by both sides of our family. It's already my third eid fitr that I celebrated in Singapore from these last four years since I live here.

Hopefully, we still have the chance to meet Ramadhan and Eid fitr next year, aamiin!